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Love More

19 Mar

 

circa 2003

This is us just a few months into our courtship.  My love for David was so grand that I didn’t think it was possible to love him more.  I was wrong.  Today, almost nine years since the time this picture was taken, God has grown a deeper, stronger love inside me for David that I am incapable of producing on my own.

I love you, David Matthew!

 

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If

14 Feb

Driftwood Heart by TinkersAttic

Taken from If by Amy Carmichael:

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after love, for they shall be filled.

If I myself dominate myself, if my thoughts revolve around myself, if I am so occupied with myself I rarely have “a heart at leisure from itself,” then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If when I am able to discover something which has baffled others, I forget Him who revealeth the deep and secret things, and knoweth what is in the darkness and showeth it to us; if I forget that it was He who granted that ray of light to His most unworthy servant, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I have not compassion on my fellowservant, even as my Lord had pity on me, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I can easily discuss the shortcomings and the sins of any; if I can speak in a casual way even of a child’s misdoings, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I can write an unkind letter, speak an unkind word, think an unkind thought without grief and shame, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I can hurt another by speaking faithfully without much preparation of spirit, and without hurting myself far more than I hurt that other, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I am afraid to speak the truth, lest I lose affection, or lest the one concerned should say, “You do not understand,” or because I fear to lose my reputation for kindness; if I put my own good name before the other’s highest good, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I am content to heal a hurt slightly, saying “Peace, peace,” where is no peace; if I forget the poignant word “Let love be without dissimulation” and blunt the edge of truth, speaking not right thing but smooth things, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I take offense easily; if I am content to continue in a cool unfriendliness, though friendship be possible, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If a sudden jar can cause me to speak an impatient, unloving word, then I know nothing of Calvary love.* For a cup brimful of sweet water cannot spill even one drop of bitter water, however suddenly jolted.

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If I feel bitterly towards those who condemn me, as it seems to me, unjustly, forgetting that if they knew me as I know myself they would condemn me much more, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I become entangled in any “inordinate affection”; if things or places or people hold me back from obedience to my Lord, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If the praise of man elates me and his blame depresses me; if I cannot rest under misunderstanding without defending myself; if I love to be loved more than to love, to be served more than to serve, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I wonder why something trying is allowed, and press for prayer that it may be removed; if I cannot be trusted with any disappointment, and cannot go on in peace under any mystery, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

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If I ask to be delivered from trial rather than for deliverance out of it, to the praise of His glory; if I forget that they way of the cross leads to the cross and not to a bank of flowers; if I regulate my life on these lines, or even unconsciously my thinking, so that I am surprised when the way is rough and think it strange, though the word is, “Think it not strange,” “Count it all joy,” then I know nothing  of Calvary love.

That which I know not, teach thou me, O Lord, my God.

Valentine Giveaway

3 Feb

My good friend Stefanie over at eatsleepandrun is hosting a jilldentonART Valentine art giveaway.  Be sure to head on over to her blog

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Follow her directions and maybe you’ll be the random winner of a little Valentine art!

My Funny Valentine

2 Feb

I like the color red and pink a lot.  I love hearts.  I really like chocolate candies in foil wrappers.  I love handmade cards.  I am loved.  This all amounts to really liking the month of February and Valentine’s Day.  This year I had plans to make a lot of Valentines to mail out and to create quite a bit of love themed artwork, but with the month of January came several unplanned events that placed me other places than my art room.  Oh well!  I did get in there the other night and do just a few things to list in my Etsy shop in case anybody out there is looking for a little handmade love to share with someone special.  And I am still hoping to get in there and squeeze out a few Valentines for the special little people in my life…my nieces and nephews!

More Than Pickles                                                                                               jilldentonART 

Soul Mates Forever                                                                                              jilldentonART 

Together                                                                                                                   jilldentonART

H A P P Y    V A L E N T I N E S

Without You & Without Love

24 Jan

Each Sunday morning during our service at church the Scriptures for that day’s sermon are read aloud before our pastor begins teaching.  This Sunday there was a bit of a technical error and the wrong Scriptures were read.  Our pastor was teaching from 2 Corinthians, but the text that was read was from 1 Corinthians.  I AM SO GLAD THAT HAPPENED!  I was familiar with the passages, but for the first time it came together for me.  It starts in 1 Corinthians chapter 12 and continues into the well know chapter of 13 about love.  The break in chapters can make one miss something huge that God wants us to know.

READ THIS:

I Corinthians 12:12-31

12 For even as the body is one and yet has many members, and all the members of the body, though they are many, are one body, so also is Christ. 13 Forby one Spirit we were all baptized into one body, whether Jews or Greeks, whether slaves or free, and we were all made to drink of one Spirit.

 14 For the body is not one member, but many. 15 If the foot says, “Because I am not a hand, I am not a part of the body,” it is not for this reason any the less a part of the body. 16 And if the ear says, “Because I am not an eye, I am not a part of the body,” it is not for this reason any the less a part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the hearing be? If the whole were hearing, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But now God has placed the members, each one of them, in the body, just as He desired. 19 If they were all one member, where would the body be? 20 But now there are many members, but one body. 21 And the eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you”; or again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 22 On the contrary, it is much truer that the members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary; 23 and those members of the body which we deem less honorable, on these we bestow more abundant honor, and our less presentable members become much more presentable, 24 whereas our more presentable members have no need of it. But God has so composed the body, giving more abundant honor to that member which lacked, 25 so that there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. 26 And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.

 27 Now you are Christ’s body, and individually members of it. 28 And God has appointed in the church, first apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then miracles, then gifts of healings, helps, administrations, various kinds of tongues. 29 All are not apostles, are they? All are not prophets, are they? All are not teachers, are they? All are not workers of miracles, are they? 30 All do not have gifts of healings, do they? All do not speak with tongues, do they? All do not interpret, do they? 31 But earnestly desire the greater gifts.

   And I show you a still more excellent way.

I Corinthians 13:1-7

1 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my bodyto be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.

 4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

First off, the importance of EVERY member of the body was such a good reminder to me.  It humbled me to recognize that ALL are there for a specific purpose, ordained by God and are of equal importance.  It also reminded me that my participation and presence is important– it isn’t good, healthy, right (or whatever word seems appropriate here) for me to not be actively involved and present at my church and in the body of believers.  If a seemingly insignificant part of the body is taken away, the whole body becomes less effective.

Secondly, as the passage continues in chapter 13 if I do ANYTHING without LOVE it results in loud clanging noises, nothing, zero profit, impatience, jealousy, meanness, arrogant, acting unbecoming, self seeking, pride, unforgiveness,  being easily provoked and ultimately failure.  Each part of the body of believers has different gifts, but ALL have LOVE available to them through Christ.  We are without excuse.

I am so grateful that I was able to hear with understanding this passage this week.  Thanks be to God!

July Fifth Eight Years Ago

5 Jul

Eight years ago on July 5 of 2003 I received a simple e-mail from David Denton in response to an e-mail that I had sent him a few months earlier.  Like I said, the e-mail itself was simple, but if you can bear with me you will learn how that little e-mail rocked my world in a mighty way.

Bear with me.

I went to India in late January of 2003.  I met David there.  Over the course of the two weeks that I was there he and I became friends.  However, for me, by the time I got ready to say good-bye to my friends and head home to Arkansas I knew I was going to see David Denton again and one day marry him.  And for David, to him I was just a friend and he didn’t think twice about whether or not he’d ever see me again.  He just said good-bye (and I’m sure some funny stuff) to all of us as we boarded a bus and headed to the airport.

Now keep in mind, David was from California and at the time he was temporarily living in Michigan.  I live in Arkansas.  Miles apart.  He not interested in me.

I was confident that God had revealed to me that I was going to marry David.  I was already in love with him and came home and told my parents “I met the guy I’m going to marry”.  What I didn’t know was how it was going to all come about, but I felt like my job was to sit still, trust, wait and watch God do the work.  (I didn’t do that very well at times)

Over the course of the next few months I was amazed at how our paths crossed.  In most cases I did nothing to manipulate the situations or scheme plans to make a way for me to see David.  God had a plan and it all started to unfold….slowly.

In late February David and one of his brothers were traveling through Arkansas and his brother contacted me to see if they could meet up with some of the India team that was from my church.  Well, since they’d be in our area in the middle of the night, me and my trooper friend, Katee were the only ones up for the midnight visit.  So, on February 23rd I got to hang out with David for about  five hours.  FIRST VISIT

In  early March I booked a flight to Michigan to go visit a friend that I had met while in India.  Now, I did know that at the time David was living in Michigan.  However, I also knew that he was out on the road somewhere on the East coast.  I really had no expectations to see him.  Much to my surprise, on Monday, March 10th David and his brother showed up at my friends house.  (come to find out David drove through the night so he could get there and hang out some before I left the next day to head home)  SECOND VISIT

Sunday, March 23rd David called my cellphone (first time he ever called my phone, I nearly fainted) and said that he and a friend were in Texas and headed home by way of Interstate 40, they would be passing through West Memphis.  He wanted to know if I was up for a visit.  Absolutely.  My friend Katee joined us for a about a four hour visit.  THIRD VISIT

April came and went.  I didn’t have any connection with David.  My faith and trust in God were stretched during this time.  I waited.

On the evening of May 19th David showed up at my house!  He was alone.  He was traveling from Michigan to Florida and decided that my house was “on the way”.  I’m pretty sure I screamed really loud.  I’m pretty sure I thought “oh, he’s got to be interested in me”.  He ended up staying the night at a hotel in West Memphis and the next day he had dinner with my family.  Since all his other visits had either been in the middle of the night or in another state, this was the first time my family really got to meet David.  This was huge.  This was the FOURTH VISIT.

While David was with my family we had talked about this comedian that we both liked.  After he left my home, I sent him a real generic e-mail with a link to a video clip of the comedian that I had found and wanted to share with him.  I sent the e-mail on May 21st. 

On May 25, June 6 and June 8 I had phone conversations with David.  By this time, without telling him that I loved him, I had made it pretty obvious that I did love him.  I was so confident that I was going to marry him it made it really difficult to just remain cool.  There were so many things I didn’t know that were going on in David’s mind and heart.  But knowing him now it all makes perfect sense.

From June 9 until July 4 I did not have any communication with David.  Zero.  Zilch.  Nothing.  Remember this was after his visit with my family and three lengthy phone conversations.  All of a sudden there was nothing.  I was miserable to say the least.  After all my confidence and faith that I had that this was going to happen, it all got ripped out from underneath me.  Over the course of these few weeks I crashed.  I cried.  I worried.  I didn’t eat much.  Didn’t sleep well.  It was a roller coaster.  I wanted so badly to pick up the phone and call him.  I wanted to write to him.  I wanted to reach out and make a connection with him just so I could feel better.  But I knew that I had to let it go.  I knew that if I was going to truly trust God then I was going to have to let go and trust that God had a plan and I needed to wait patiently.

On the 4th of July my family had a cookout celebration with friends.  I remember this afternoon so clearly.  I know what I was wearing, where I was sitting when my friend came up and asked me how things were going with David.  I told him that I wasn’t sure what was going on–  that I had not heard from him in a few weeks.  Then I said “this waiting and trusting thing isn’t easy.”  He apologized for asking and bringing it up, I assured him it was ok (although it was the last thing I wanted to talk about).

That night as everybody left and we cleaned up, I made my way upstairs to go get ready for bed.  I just laid across my bed and cried so hard.  The big ugly cry.  I begged God that if I had this all wrong then please, God, don’t let me see or hear from David until my heart can heal.  I literally begged and cried out to God until I eventually fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up with an emotional hangover.  I eventually made my way downstairs for breakfast and then headed to the computer to go online.  When I opened my e-mail…..yep, there it was…an e-mail from David M. Denton that he had sent in the early morning hour on Saturday, July 5th.  I couldn’t read it fast enough.  My heart was racing.  I was crying so hard.  THIS WAS MY ANSWER!  This e-mail was a response to the e-mail that I had sent him back in May after his visit.  This e-mail ROCKED. MY. WORLD!

Of course, I replied to him immediately.

And since then we’ve never stopped our ongoing conversation.

I am reminded about how God heard my cry and answered me.  David and I often say to each other, “if God gave us both clear direction on our soul mate, He’ll definitely give us clear direction on fill in the blank“.

Wait for the LORD;  Be strong and let your heart take courage;  Yes, wait for the LORD.  Psalms 27:14

“God makes us a promise…Faith believes in it, Hope anticipates it and Patience waits quietly for it.”  Charles Stanley

7 Year Holiday

27 May

Eight years ago when I made a decision to travel to India on a missions trip I had expectations that it would change my life.  However, I never expected to have my heart be opened up and filled with a love for another person unlike any thing else I had ever felt before in my life time.  I met David Denton 8 years ago, and after just a few days of being around him and observing him love, serve and entertain the people of India I knew I had met the man that I had been praying for, my soul mate.

David Denton & Jill Marconi in India 2003

I’m gonna spare you all the details and the long story about what all happened after the India trip…the main thing is that about eight months after returning home, he asked a question and I said yes and then on May 29, 2004, we became husband and wife.

Mr. & Mrs. David Denton

We are now celebrating our seventh wedding anniversary!  Marriage for me is an amazing gift.  While ours hasn’t been perfect, it is perfect for us.  It hasn’t always been easy, but it is worth every difficult moment.  I’ve learned, I’ve grown, I’ve failed and that process keeps repeating.  God has given me a love for David that man in his own capabilities cannot produce.

The following song has a huge personal meaning for me.  The first time I heard it I was overwhelmed by the simple lyrics that hold such strong feelings.  It’s exactly the way I feel about David.  He is my holiday, right in the middle of me, my hideaway, he is my home, and he is my favorite part of me.  I love you, David and I always wheeeeeeel!

You are my holiday, you are right in the middle of me.  You are my hideaway.  You are home.  I’m calling out your name, Oh my holiday!  You make my heart new, and I love you.  What it is I’m trying to say is you are my favorite part of me.

You are my favorite part of me!

holiday by shane&shane

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